Someone, oh someone
who chose, who decided
that this now, that this moment
to live I should, to live

crawling, walking, running, stumbling

Someone, I grew up with
who I played with,
someone who decided, to learn
how to be, angry, happy, chided, loved

crawling, walking, running, stumbling

Someone I once knew
who taught me to love
someone who taught me to learn
how to learn, cry, laugh, think, love

How someone like her, taught me to love

crawling, walking, running, stumbling

Someone, oh someone
who chose this path, who could be me
someone who looked about, those among me
teaching, knowing, learning, leaving

How she did, what I did as well, what we did

crawling, walking, running, stumbling

Someone, oh someone
who one day, perhaps bright and sunny
Someone who will choose, my days to end
sorrow, regret, passing, memories, redemption

crawling, walking, running, stumbling

Someone, oh someone
who let this life be led, the life, alive to live
Someone else started, someone else ended
someone, someday, passing into someone else

Someone, I used to know

Photo of the Family Dog. Still alive and “crawling, walking, running, stumbling”

as I am, as well…..


My Special Visit

Dear Little Sister                                                                                       July 4, 2017

As a surprise for you, I’ve decided to travel from Denmark to California in order to join the family in the celebration of your life.

I’ve gathered all of the photos and video clips, any and all papers, and such, so we can have fun remembering how life was, growing up together.

I must admit, I’ve told many others here about you over the past 2 weeks, which is more than I ever have spoken of you before. You know how our communication has been lacking over the last 25 years or so, but last year, when I visited you and the rest of the family, we let bygones be bygones.

I’ve done a lot of writing with your son concerning the visit and the past few weeks. He seems like a fine young man who, under your love and guidance, has grown up into a person that you can easily be proud of.

I’m told that a number of your other friends and family, will also be present to celebrate your life. The greatest thing we possess in this life, are those two things, and my life as well, is enriched by much of the same.

I’ve been meaning to ask you a few things, that have been on my mind over the past 2 weeks or so, but the shortness of my visit might not allow me the pleasure of getting all of those questions answered.

I’ve taken some of the photos with me showing us together, growing up in California. It seems like a million years ago, the last time we were together, but I know that we will always share something special, regardless of where we end up in this life.

I’ve been thinking about contacting you before this trip, but you know how it is with our daily duties, etc.? There is always something that comes in the way, and the unexpected most of all. We can only live our lives, with the knowledge that we put one foot in front of the other, and know that we will get where we are going, some day.

I am not sure, what I can bring you, as you seem to have everything you need. Your husband and your son, a long life to look back on, and the knowledge that something even greater will be waiting for you in the end.

I hope this letter has explained the purpose of my extra-ordinary visit this summer? We can’t control everything in this life, no matter how much we try. Some surprises are good, while others less so.

I hope, you’ll remember, that I am your brother, now and forever, and any/all differences, we’ve had with each other, are now a thing of the past.

Well, gotta run now. I’ve still a few things to pack before my trip tomorrow. Be assured that through the many airports and days until your celebration, I’ll still be thinking of you, and wondering about your life, and how I was a part of it, so many years ago.

Sincerely yours – what? Too formal?

OK. Since it is you,

Love – Your brother

Each and Every Breath

Why do I exist
what greater purpose
what grand plan
why do I breathe
in and out
day after day
why do I live
what gives me the right
to exist in this space
where others surely
could be, instead,
what makes me think
like I do
what makes me continue
to be the person that I am
affecting all others around me
with that course of action,
what decides my future
who is with me then, with me now
what will the future me think
about what I did today
what I do tomorrow
affecting, detailing, altering
who I will become,

Each and every breath
just, only, because
living another day
asking why?


Life, Being a Torrent

in a fast, flowing current
taking me away
rooting at my very core
of existence,
Apparent handholds
mock my feeble grip
Drawing my hands and arms
closer to my body
I resign myself
allowing, giving
take what it will,

Letting life, drag me away
in its current….


Living, Pain, Time

Living is temporary
Pain is enduring
Time is relative
Seasons do change
Your fingers on my skin
Knowledge is invigorating
Emotions are difficult
Running makes me tired
Starry nights shine upon you
Closing my eyes
Inviting sleep in
Your smile lights up my memory
Cloudy skies light or dark
Violent tendencies turn me off
The world and its problems, out of reach
The wine swirls in my glass
The fire dances in your eyes
Emotions are intense
Living is worthwhile, with you
Time is never long enough
Pain comes, then goes again

Living is temporary
Love is eternal

Enjoy both of them
while you can….


Replacing the Pain

the pain of living
would make life
much more enjoyable
allowing us
the mere pleasure
of being


Complicated, Not

are our lives
not complicated?
why is remembering
that when, is only just
a memory, a moment
in time,

When I told her
I loved her
when her smile appeared
in the seconds that followed

When life was not complicated
being mere moments
a few seconds
the time to breathe
one breath
the image traveling
from head to heart

-just a few seconds of time


In Less Words

In less words than
the time it takes to open
the door, leaving the past
behind, waving to the future
stuck in the present, I am
enjoying what only I know
being here, in my mind, my body
reaching out, drawing in each breath
exhaling the day of all days,
Life in less words,
cannot be expressed
in so few words
as these…